One Below Deck Mediterranean yachtie is grieving a tragic loss.

During the Bravo collection’ Sept. 2 episode, season 9 Deckhand Nathan Gallager obtained information that one of his finest associates died whereas he was away at sea—and he was understandly devastated.

“So, I get this text saying that my friend has passed away from cancer,” the Ireland native defined in a confessional. “I knew he had cancer, but the night before I came to join the boat, we were out drinking. He wasn’t drinking but he seemed okay. Thinking about the memories and things like that, it’s a lot of information to gather at once and I’m just pushing that aside for now.”

Later, whereas your complete crew was having fun with an evening off by partying collectively in Greece, Nathan’s boatmance companion, fellow Deckhand Gael Cameron, observed he wasn’t fairly himself. And on the experience again to the boat, he lastly shared the unlucky information to Gael and Chief Stew Aesha Scott.

Once again on the dock, Nathan lastly let his feelings out.