Content warning: This story discusses self-harm and suicidal ideation.  

Stassi Schroeder is opening up on how her darkish previous is affecting her future.  

The Vanderpump Rules alum not too long ago opened up on how her 3-year-old daughter Hartford—whom she shares with husband Beau Clark—reacts to seeing self-harm scars on her physique.  

“When I look at myself naked, Hartford will see a little line, and she’ll be like, ‘Mommy, ouchie,’” Schroeder defined to Bustle in an interview revealed Sept. 5. “I’m like, ‘Oh, God, that feels dirty. How will I ever explain to her that this was something that I chose?’”

Still, the 36-year-old—who can be mother to 12-month-old son Messer—detailed why she was committing to being open concerning the delicate matter.  

“It just feels like it’s been a secret, and I don’t like secrets,” she continued. “I think that’s part of maybe why I do what I do—podcasts, just living out loud. Because there is this feeling of: ‘I’m free. Everyone knows my s–t. I don’t have to hide anything.’”