In the latest episode of the Beardo and Weirdo podcast, comedian Craig Gass and Five Finger Death Punch bassist Chris Kael engage in a profound discussion about the importance of embracing vulnerability and taking responsibility for past mistakes. This candid conversation delves into the challenges of personal growth and the emotional hurdles faced in the wake of relationships.

Kael shares a poignant memory from his past when he returned home from a wedding to find a letter from his girlfriend, indicating that she had left him and taken her belongings. This shocking revelation serves as a catalyst for Kael to reflect on his personal journey, illustrating the complex emotions tied to love and loss.

As the discussion unfolds, Kael reveals ongoing struggles related to his past, particularly the pressures of receiving unsolicited nude photos from women in his direct messages. He addresses the allure of fantasy and the inner conflicts that arise from it, emphasizing the challenges that come with navigating these temptations.

“As a recovering addict, I’ve learned that the substances I used were merely symptoms of deeper issues,” Kael explains. “I’ve managed to overcome my struggles with drugs and alcohol, but as a musician and entertainer, I still find myself seeking ways to fill that void.” His candidness sheds light on the ongoing journey of recovery and self-discovery many face.

Kael continues, “When I find myself in states of being hungry, angry, lonely, or tired, I know I’m at risk of slipping back into old habits.” He elaborates on how the grueling nature of touring can amplify these feelings, making it crucial to remain vigilant in his recovery process.

“I’m recognizing that I’m encountering challenges. While I’m not sure if I’m dealing with sex and love addiction, I do grapple with the desire for external validation. Even after significant time in recovery, there are moments when I struggle with self-worth,” he openly shares, highlighting the complexities of recovery.

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Reflecting on his past, Kael admits, “In my previous life, I would have embraced that attention and cheated without hesitation, engaging in all the behaviors associated with active addiction.” This acknowledgment of his past behaviors illustrates the depth of his transformation and his commitment to personal integrity.

Returning to the moment when he discovered his girlfriend had emptied their home within a short 36-hour period, Kael expresses a surprising sense of admiration for her decisiveness. “Kudos to her. That’s truly impressive,” he remarks. “If I hadn’t loved her so deeply, I’d have found her actions to be incredibly bold and empowering. That kind of assertiveness? I respect that.”

Applauding Kael for his openness, it’s inspiring to witness his journey of self-improvement and his efforts to foster healthier relationships moving forward.

Check out the full episode of the Beardo and Weirdo podcast below for an in-depth exploration of these themes and more in this engaging conversation.

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The Beardo and Weirdo podcast features comedian Craig Gass alongside Chris Kael, the bassist of Five Finger Death Punch. Together, they blend humor with heartfelt narratives, tackling serious subjects such as addiction and the journey toward recovery, making for an engaging and enlightening listening experience.

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